Confessions

I've come to a conclusion that will result in my happiness and leaves everyone else as happy as I WILL be. This may come across as silly and only half-serious, but I'm telling you right up front that this is about as serious as it comes!

• I'm gonna take Brother Christiansen's advice and just become a nun until my 21st birthday. Hopefully I'll have my degree by then. I'll then go on a mission to where ever the Big Guy upstairs decides to send me and then I'll come home and make lots of money with my amazing photo skills and probably become a crazy dog lady (I hate cats) and/or a professional dog photographer. Despite the mission and all the wonderful experiences that I will have while serving the Lord, I will come home and probably become socially retarded because I'll live with dogs for the rest of my life. But guess what? They're loyal and that's all that matters.
• I haven't been asked on a single date since I started college. Granted, I've only been through 5 weeks of college, but I still feel as though there should have been something that was supposed to happen. At least something exactly opposite of what I have been going through. But life isn't perfect, we all know that. Needless to say, I'm an impatient person.
• Instead of actually going on dates, I've actually considered wearing a ring on my finger in order to avoid people from talking to me. This totally contradicts what I said before, but again, I'm not really in the mood to be social. And instead of going on dates, I'll just take all of that time that I would spend having an actual social life and take institute classes or something.
• Since all of my friends are leaving on missions within the next 8-9 months, next summer will be very uneventful, especially with Toria going off to England to explore the world. (I'm totally happy for her, but I also rage in jealousy. . .) I've come to one conclusion - work at a summer scout camp! I actually would love this and would find it to be awesome. Then I can teach those obnoxious 12 year olds at a young age and possibly knock some sense into them. I mean the likelihood isn't very high, but it's worth a shot. Besides, they don't know they're immature. They're completely innocent! Anyways, so this option leaves me with open weekends to spend with the family, which in all honesty, is all I need at this point. Everyone else can just consider themselves disowned.
• So if the whole scout camp idea doesn't work out, then I'm gonna have to find something else to do. Don't get me wrong, slappin' sammies around was fun while it lasted, but I am ready for BIGGER and better things. Possibly an internship of some kind? Or I could totally pack my summer with photo shoots? Well, either way, I'll probably do that anyways. I don't know, maybe I'll try out retail or something. I've always had a secret desire to work at Forever XXI for some reason. Don't judge me. Just go with it.

So I'm hoping that this was a healthy and round-about way to deal with stress and emotions. I feel like it wasn't angry at all and actually quite light-hearted. It definitely helped me get my mind off of things. Quite honestly, this week is not a good one. Can't wait for tomorrow and Sunday though. THOSE will be great days where I'll get to see some amazing old friends and reminisce the old times. I'll be sad to send off Izak and Nik, but they will be fantastic missionaries. Monterrey and Chicago will be extremely blessed to have them around for 2 years! (:

Tomorrow I get to go to work early (not really looking forward to that though. . .), coming home, getting ready and looking wonderful, going to get our family pictures taken (if I can actually decide what to wear. . .) Then graciously going to take pictures of a group that will be going to Maeser's Homecoming Dance (super excited for that) and then ending the night with my wonderful friends Brett (haven't seen him since June, and will probably knock him over when I see him) and Kaden by attending a concert at the Velour where Ruth will be performing. Seriously so excited. And Brett said that he would take me on a date when he gets home. Well, he's coming home. So perhaps I shall wait till after that date to become a nun. . . hm. . .

Trying to keep life as good as possible. Stay strong friends.

Thank You

Thank you to those who have made my life just a little bit easier. More specifically to those who listen to me rant and go off on tangents when I need to figure something out. (FYI: The best way for me to figure out something for myself is for me to talk about it with someone. I solve a lot of my problems and relieve a lot of stress by just talking to someone. Even if they don't say anything, they just have to listen.) Thanks also to those who have had to listen to it countless times, especially when I get extremely anxious and frustrated, namely, my mother. She's always willing to listen, even if she's not really listening, but seems like she is because she's so tired. My momma works really hard for our family and does a lot. And it doesn't help that she's been pretty sick the last couple of weeks. (Even though it frustrates me further when I ask her for advice and she tells me to decide for myself, and then I decide for myself and she tells me that I need to do the opposite. So frustrating.) I love you momma. ♥

Thank you to my dad who will sit and watch Big Bang with me and eat a ginormous cucumber with me. Really, we have some good times watching television believe it or not ;) And my dad gives really good hugs too. I love them. And I love you paps. Even when we have "being an adult" talks. I hate them, but I still love you!

Thank you to Carly for spending part of her evening with me. I miss this girl dearly. We can talk about anything, and after tonight, I am reassured of this. ;) Dinner was amazing, and I love you. Enjoy the rest of your semester and I shall see you at Christmas.

Thank you to Brittnie for working for me when I decide I want to go out of town and not work that weekend. I made it really easy for her to slice tonight since she was already working 10 hours beforehand. I love you and thanks for always making me smile, even when it's accompanied by blushing. ;)

Thank you to Drew for always being there for me, caring for me, and loving me more than anything. I love you, even when you're a pain in the... well, you know. :) I love our exciting adventures up the canyon, at Iceberg and well, just hanging out with your family or losing bets when we play Phase 10. You're the best friend ever chub.

Thank you to Lisa, who is just simply amazing. She is always willing to let me in her home and is always feeding me delicious new foods. Like salmon burgers! Have you ever had one? Didn't think so. They're awesome. And she looks like Lynda Carter from Wonder Woman. If you haven't, go and check out page 44 of the most recent Utah Valley Magazine. She's in it and she's lovely. :) I love Lisa, and that's all there is to it. She's like a second mom. In fact, maybe one day she will be. ;) Haha, hey, it could happen!

Thank you to all those who have been recommending me to other people to take photos for events in their life. Holy tamoles, it's been incredible. Because of references, I'm doing bridals tomorrow, a wedding next month and potentially engagements in the next few weeks. I so love this and I so appreciate those who tell people about my stuff. I seriously love you. Not only do I love doing it, but the little extra cash for a struggling college student is more than appreciated as well. (Namely Chelsea, Kinzie and Kylie:))

Thank you to my sister. She really is one of the most caring people in this world. I know I'm not the best sister in the world, but I really do care. I know it doesn't always seem like that. We fight a lot and we say dumb things to each other and really know how to piss each other off, but I definitely have to say that when we are both in good moods, we are quite hilarious.

*Reading Calvin and Hobbes*
Sav (reading as Calvin): Dad! Can I have a flamethrower?
Dad (in bathroom): Sure!

Seriously thank you to those of you who have just been there with a smile and appreciate me for who I am. I seriously couldn't survive my life without them. Doing fifteen credits, working a part-time job, and handling a social life is no easy task and I could never do it on my own.

I guess you could call this my early gratitude list for Thanksgiving this year. Ha, perhaps I'll do a post every day in November, each with something/someone that I'm grateful for. Should be exciting. Haha, especially considering I can hardly keep up with my scripture study, let alone a blog. ;)

OH, and one more thing... pretty sure I just did the hardest thing ever. I'm pretty positive that I finished the Book of Mormon tonight. Pretty sure. Gonna have to check when I get home. I'm just one more experience away from getting my young women's medallion. Goodness gracious. It's about time...

Happy Things

(Because I am in need of some optimism in my life.)

• Raising almost $35,000 for Make-A-Wish on the Ride-for-Life a couple of weeks ago.
• Staying caught up on homework, no matter how boring it is.
• Realizing that college is hard, but knowing that I have the capability to get myself through it.
• Visiting with my second momma this afternoon
• Finding out that I'm most likely going to be able to go to Cedar this weekend with my parents, who are running a half marathon, and I'm going to visit friends! (AKA Kristy, Michaela and Carly! So excited! :))
• Donating money to this wonderful family. Seriously you NEED to read their story. It's incredible.
• Just reading up on their blog and finding out that my donation will be doubled. WOW. That's A LOT of money... I love knowing that it will make all the difference. Please donate even the slightest if you can. Even if it's just a dollar, it will be accepted with gratitude.
• Having the best friend in the world! Love you chub :)

• And I can't really think of anything else. College is hard and I'm still not used to it, but as my good friend Lauren Van Cott would quote,

"Never give up, never surrender."

 

Good night everyone :)