woah.

it's almost june.

awesome.

My mom got a new calling.
IN THE YOUNG WOMEN'S!
WOOT!
Guess what else?
She's the personal progress advisor whatchamacallit!
And guess what else?
Amber is the young women's president!
One of my most favoritest people in the entire world!
Oh, glory be.
I'm rather excited.
Because that means that I have even more motivation to
get my personal progress done this summer.
It was already in my list of projects to do...
But that's just plain awesome. Right?
Yup.

And you know what else?
I have a photoshoot with an amazing family on Tuesday.
The Blackham Family.
I love them with all my heart.
I'm probably over there hanging with Alex more than anyone else's house.
Which is sad,
cause I don't hang out with peeps all the often anymore.
(Let's hang out, k?)
Oh, and by then,
I'll be done with finals!
Awesome? I think so.
And then Wednesday is yearbook day and I'm determined to get all my pages filled.
It'll be so sweet!
*cough* I mean awesome! AWESOME. This post is all about awesome.
And THEN come Thursday,
mwahaha,
I get to help set up the 'T' on the mountain for graduation,
which just so happens to be in Provo at the BYU Marriot Center.
And I get to help usher that in my cool lookin' (awesome) brand new
student council jacket. Yep. Awesome.
Life isn't only good, it's awesome.
Just like it should be.
Now I just need to pass my English final... :/

A Glimpse of My Morning

A Temporary Fixture

It doesn't matter how many times you fall.

All that matters is how many times you get back up.

I've been going through a few rough patches lately in life.

Really, the only thing that keeps me going is the fact that I KNOW

that it's not a permanent fixture.

It's kind of nice to think about actually,

knowing that I'll be high on life again.

Soon enough.

It'll come.

I just have to strive for it.

Lately, I've become more quiet and to myself.

I'm still social, and what some might consider outgoing,

but I just prefer not to be judged by others.

Not that I really actually care,

but it still doesn't feel good when people don't care about what you have to say,

or what you want to share with them,

or what you might be excited about in life at the time.

Yeah,

that's alright.

No one is really the perfect friend.

Not even me...

Well, I can think of ONE,

but He's perfect at everything.

No matter what,

He will make you feel better.

I can talk to him about anything,

and he cares.

When you fall, He's the first one by your side.

He'll pull you back up and then lift you higher than you ever thought imaginable.

It's an incredible thought to think about.

When you're frustrated,

He's frustrated.
If it's a problem for you,
it's a problem for Him.

But when you're happy and laughing,

He'll laugh with you,

He WILL enjoy that moment in excitement with you.

He rejoices in our happiness,

probably even more than we do.
(believe it or not)

Someday, I hope to be the best friend ever.

To be the best sister,

daughter,

cousin,

niece,

granddaughter

wife.

Not in this lifetime,

perfection cannot be obtained,

but I can get pretty close

as long as I let Him help me.

It's kind of hard to pull somebody back up,

if they're not willing to get up.

One day.

I just have to start trying to be that kind of person now.

That's the only way it's going to happen.

They do say that in order to become the person you want to be,

you have to start acting like it.

Thoughts become words,

words become actions,

actions become habit

and habit becomes character.

Things to do to keep life interesting:

Sometimes I find that even Mr. Broadbent can find funny things to show the class. Recently, he's shown us some comics or even a video or two at the start of class that has to do with physics... or not. Sometimes, they're just random and pointless, but awesome. Just like yesterday! Yesterday he pulled up a powerpoint slide with the title: "Things to do to keep life interesting:" I thought to myself, this ought to be interesting. Well, it was freaking hilarious. Just saying. Therefore, I shall share them with you. Anybody interested in doing them with me, you just tell me when and where and I'll be there! :)

• Sit in your parked car with sunglasses on and point a hair dryer at passing cars. See if they slow down.
• Every time someone asks you to do something, ask if they want fries with that.
• Order a diet water whenever you go out to eat, with a serious face.
• Specify that your drive-through order is 'to go'.
• When the money comes out of the ATM, scream, "I WON! I WON!"
• When leaving the zoo, start running towards the parking lot yelling,"Run for your lives! They're loose!"

Well, once I have accomplished these...
I'll find something else entertaining to do
and then I'll be sure to tell you ALL about it.

Oh, and PS I got a cool lookin' keychain at the Drama Banquet tonight for being stage manager at the beginning of the year. I felt special. :)

Join the VLC

You all know what I'm talking about.
VLC?
Virgin lips club?
Yep, I'm in it.
I could go around kissing boys,
but I don't.
Not because I don't want to,
I just choose not to.
I don't care who you are,
what you do,
where you come from,
what faith you believe in,
or if you believe in any religion at all,
because my opinion won't change.
I have braces too... that doesn't help.
I absolutely refuse to kiss any boys with metal on my teeth.

I'm saving my kisses because they're special to me,
and hopefully they'll be special for the people that I do choose to share them with.

You ask what brings this up do you?
Well, I have this friend
and her name is Almond,
and she tells me that I had better start kissing lots of boys before my lips fall off.
She also tells me that if I don't start kissing boys now,
I'm not gonna get much of a chance later on
and then once I get married,
I HAVE TO KISS ONE PERSON FOR THE REST OF LIFE.
(dun dun dun)

Okay, let's get real.
I'll be fine.

Now I'm not condemning anyone who does kiss.
That's your choice to make.
Don't worry.
I still like you.
So life is good.
Even without kisses at (almost) 17. :)

Rewind-Morp 2011

Yep, I went on a date on Saturday.

And it was FUN.

Very relaxed.

My favorite way to do it.

Especially when I'm stressed.

It was nice to just spend a Saturday with a good friend.

I don't want to go into too much detail,

because I wrote 15 pages about it in my journal,

so I'm sure you can imagine that I'm tired of writing about it. LOL.

Yeah, anyways,

it was a blast.

And I would definitely do it again in a heartbeat.

We don't have our official pictures yet, but ya gotta give them time

that's for sure.

Alright.

Well, here ya go.

Honestly, these are basically the only pictures I got. Sad, huh? Hence the 15 pages of journal writing (which took forever, mind you...) Anyways, We look pretty cool in our awesome shirts huh? Yeah, I thought so too :)

I'll shut up and just show you pictures... :P

Crawling Over the Finish Line

In English, my teacher Mrs. Crampton, has been getting mad at us because very few of us have done anything lately. (ahem... like the take-home quiz that we had a week to do and only 10/32 kids turned it in... I wasn't one of them...)

We're tired,
exhausted,
and done.
WITH SCHOOL.
I'm sure I can speak for every single one of us when I say,
Summer could NOT come fast enough.
We're ready to be kids again.
Screw growing up.
I just wanna play every day!
Ha,
nope.
We're doomed if that's what we want out of life.
Ah, well.

So anyways,
she tells us that we need to run across the finish line.
Well, I just tripped and fell and didn't end up getting up for a minute.
I've got a ton to do and text books are getting turned in tomorrow...
Like... the ones that I need.
Ha, so I'd better go and make the best of them while I still have them.

Oh, and I have my last choir concert tonight.
So you should come.
It's most likely the last choir concert I'll ever be in.
Sounds exciting doesn't it?
Not really.
I'm upset,
but it'll be alright.
Next year holds great things for me.
I am quite excited.
Lovely.
Gotta get going.
Life is good.
Life will be better once summer comes though. :)

Before We Know It

Before we know it,
we're going to be graduated.
I seriously cannot believe that us Juniors only have ONE YEAR LEFT.
Crazy right?
I think so.
This is our last summer in high school,
the last summer before all of us can do stupid stuff without getting arrested!
(Not that we do stupid things anyways...)

Before we know it,
we'll be applying for colleges in the late fall,
graduating,
sending our boys on missions,
going to college,
living on our own,
getting our heart broken once or twice,
and then falling in love with our eternal companion,
having kids and a family of our own,
and facing new challenges that make us wish we were back in high school.

Wow... guys... we're almost seniors.
Next year is going to be the best.
At least for me.
I've got Tech
and Student Council,
and photography classes so that I'm actually gonna know what I'm doing!
(Exciting, isn't it?)
I'm gonna have the party of my life next year.
It's gonna be friggin' sweet.
What are you gonna do to make it the best year ever?
What are you gonna do to make this the best SUMMER ever?
Really, it's time to be living the life,
because frankly...
right now is good.
Right now is the time that you will wish in your future, that you had made better.
So why not make it the best?

In one year, we'll be getting ready to graduate.
We'll have already decided which colleges to go to,
(hopefully),
and possibly what we even want to do with our lives.
Well,
I guess we'll have to see where life puts us on June 5, 2012.
Weird to think about isn't it?
Either way,
life is good,
and I plan on keeping it that way.

My Stupid Mouth

Somtimes I feel as though I say too much,
especially without thinking.
Especially during certain hour long phone conversations,
(you know exactly who you are),
Ha, I embarrass myself completely and just wonder why I even bother talking at all sometimes.
But then I realize that it doesn't matter
and that this certain person isn't going to judge me by the little stupid things that I say.
At least let's hope?
Haha, that's my optimism for you.
But when I'm feeling more pessimistic,
I listen to this song,
and I laugh,
because it relates to me perfectly.
It's awesome.
I love John Mayer.

And now I've got a date to impress on Saturday.
We'll just have to see,
now won't we?
Shouldn't be too difficult...
but after how long he went off on how much he loved Prom last weekend...
gotta make this a date memorable for the both of us.
I think I just got an idea... :)
No time for it on Saturday,
but it'll be put in my
"Ideas for Dates in the Future".
Anyways,
life is good.
And I decided to go to church,
even though I feel like poop.
Stupid head cold.

None of This and None of That

Well, here it goes... 
not being able to go to the sand dunes...
it's a drag.
So I get to stay home in the adventurous Orem, Utah this weekend.
No major sunburn,
no lines where my camera strap would normally be around my neck,
no sand in abnormal places,
no smelling funny at the end of the weekend,
no campfires,
no being around some of the people that I love to be around,
no four-wheelers,
no chance to create more memories.

Rather than all of that,
I get to work this weekend.
It's a good thing too.
I prayed that I would have enough money for all the things I needed to purchase and pay for by the end of the year,
such as 
Morp,
and a jersey for next year's student council shin-dig.
Well, in order for prayers to be answered,
there's gotta be some sacrifice sometimes, right?
Yup.
I just want summer to be here so that I can make lots of money and save up in order to do what I please.
And save up for the things that I desire most.
And be a faithful tithe payer 
(which I am already, but I always look forward to being able to pay more tithing... is that weird?)
And I want summer to be here so that I don't have to worry about missing school. 
I love my job.
This summer's gonna be epic.
And I'll probably be tired of it by then,
but I'll still love it forever.

Alright, 
life is good.
And today at lunch was hilarious.
Thanks for that.
I haven't laughed that hard for a long time.
It was extraordinary.
Kudos to Kaden :)


Super excited for Morp...
just throwing that out there as well.

Soaking Up the Sun

Let me just share something with you that makes me happy inside :)

Well, I think it's pretty self explanatory.

I've been sitting out in the sun for the past hour or so.

And it feels divine.

It's one of my many tactics to be happy again.

It's helping. :)

 

(It's supposed to rain next week...

 but it'll get better before the week is through.

No worries. :) )

Ready. Set. Wait.

I'm ready. I'm set.
And now I just have to wait.
Summer cannot come fast enough!
It means working,
money,
ACT,
turning 17 (and having the most simple, perfect, best birthday ever),
Leadership camp for Student Council,
working,
playing,
girls camp,
fun...

We are going four-wheeling this weekend...
but I want to go so bad.
And I don't want to stop.
This summer is gonna be CRAZY.
But wicked sweet.
I seriously cannot wait.
Can't wait to have my last summer in high school.

I just have to get through the last month of school.
A few things will help with that.
Such as,
Knolls,
Morp,
State Choir Festival,
Pass my classes,
Help at graduation.

Wow... I've got lots to do in the next 4 weeks.
Here goes everything!